Where I need to be

I have joined an online community that is part of the website incourage.me . My community group is called inJoy and it is for single women. I am really looking forward to learning from this group of women, getting support when I need it, and lifting others up as well. The facebook group is where we are doing most of the sharing, but a lot of women have blogs, and I am going to check them all out and start to interact more with them soon. I am planning to add a sidebar of links to my inJoy ladies!

I know I won’t always be able to personally write about what we talk about in the group, but when I can, I hope to jot down a few thoughts here. Years from now, the conversations will be buried on the facebook, and I wanted to be able to reference it in the future.

For today: Question Monday
Psalm 37:4 says, “Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.”
Let’s talk about this verse. How do you interpret it? What does “delight in the Lord” look like practically? What are the “desires of our heart”? How does this verse leave you feeling?

There were quite a few responses so far, and my response was this:

“I’m sure I’m not alone when I say I struggle with this all the time. It is not easy to let go of what WE think we desire. Surrender is allowing God to lead our hearts to where HE needs us to go… then delighting in Him will allow us to joyfully pursue those God-given desires. SOOOO much easier said than done. I constantly pray for God to LEAD ME! USE ME!!! Here I am!! What are you waiting for!? I need to realize that I AM exactly where He needs me to be right now, and be content in this part of my journey.”

I have done a lot of thinking about this lately, and I have to say that I am incredibly thankful that I am NOT in a relationship right now. The most important thing for me right now, is to be available when my sister needs me. While she has tons of supportive friends and co-workers, there isn’t anyone else besides her husband that has been there every single step of the way. This is quite possibly the most important role I have ever had. I’ve had to make some sacrifices… but I know in my heart that I’m right where I need to be.

I’ve also struggled with the notion that my life has no meaning or purpose. That I am not contributing to something bigger. But that simply isn’t true. I need to embrace that I am where I am and know that there are very specific reasons for it. God is doing work in me, even if I can’t understand it or see the results from it yet. I need to make the most of the opportunities He presents me with every day that might seem insignificant. We all have the opportunity to make a positive impact in someone’s day. Whether it be a genuine comment on a fb or blog post, or a smile to a stranger in the grocery store.

In addition to these small things…I also need to re-focus my time and energy into doing activities and spending time with people who DO add meaning and value to my life. For example, I did not travel with my competitive frisbee team to play in the SW regional tournament last weekend. My sister’s husband was going on a camping trip and I didn’t want my sister to be alone. There was no question that I made the right decision. I just knew I wouldn’t have been able to stand on the sidelines knowing that my sister might have been having a hard time by herself. I just don’t make that big of a contribution to the team for it to have been worth it.

My sister and I spent time with a child-hood friend who is going through a difficult time, made ribbons to give to other bereaved families for a memorial on Oct. 15th, and baked a desert for a neighbor as a thank-you for making her and Steve meals during those first few weeks back at home. So yeah… I feel pretty good about the way I spent my weekend. 🙂


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